I just realized that this whole project is for me so much about going out of my comfort zone and there are so many moments when I totally don’t know how to deal with it. So today was the day of planning a film scenario for Polak Potrafi. And I keep reading this scenario and thinking “it’s so much not me”. Me myself I cannot believe that in what I want to do, but on the other hand I want it so much. So I constantly keep searching for a way to make someone else’s believe instead of me and make it all happen – this whole campaign and promotion of myself. I just want to take my bike and go, meet people, talk, volunteer – do everything what I’m good at. Kind of run away! Because I totally don’t know how to manage with what is happening right now. So I can only hope that one day I will get down here on the picture, but I’m totally not there yet:
So I’ve been to Krakow those last six days and it felt so good in there. Now I’m back to Warsaw and here it’s only wotk, work, work – oh, so much Warsaw-like!
And now it’s middle of the night and I keep working, and working, and working…
Warsaw, Poland, 2 August 2015